I was in the middle of dreamless sleep last night,and suddenly awoken by this uneasy feeling.The uneasiness feeling when something is missing.Something haven't done yet.Something is not right.Something bad will happen.I can't find the words to describe what exactly it is.
Or maybe I missed having someone there. Maybe I missed everyone in my life. Maybe I missed everyone who used to be in my life.
Hoihhhhh.Apa ni.Apa ni.Baru hari Isnin dah jadi macam-macam.
Malam tadi kepala I terhantuk almari usang.Nahh,dapat benjol comel sebijik di dahi.Dah macam rupa shin shan kena debik ngan mak dia.
Lepas tu,tadi kan,tadi kan,kena denda ketuk ketampi 20 kali sebab datang lambat latihan kawad.Tapi main tipu.1,2,3,4 terus tibe-tiba dah 20.Buat muka tak tahu malu padahal rasa nak timbus muka dalam tanah sebab terlampau malu terpaksa ketuk ketampi depan jejaka-jejaka yang tengah bersenam di gym.Ada bermurah hati bagi I senyuman sinis pulak tu.Tskk.
Sekali lagi Fie sangat berhati mulia lagi suci tolong update kan lagi status kat fb tadi.Kali ni jadi I jadi flowerhorn yang kacak pulak.Dua hari lepas jadi keluang man dan seminggu before tu jadi ultraman.Terima kasih Fie.Baju aku rasa-rasa macam nak koyak-koyak dah ni.Seluar dah jadi makin kecik.Aku dah nak bertukar jadi hijau dah ni.Hoishhh.Baik kau takut sekarang.
Esok apa pulak yeah?Tak ada ke tiba-tiba ada orang baik hati bagi notes cinta kat I tulis, "Bill broadband u dah langsai,I dah bayarkan untuk setahun punya bill terus".
Been there,done that,messed around, I'm having fun don't put me down, I'll never let you sweep me off my feet, I won't let you in again, the messages I've tried to send, My informations just not going in, Burnin' bridges shore to shore, I'll break away from something more, I'm not turned off to love until it's cheap, Been there, done that, messed around, I'm having fun don't put me down, I'll never let you sweep me off my feet, This time baby I'll be bulletproof
This time baby I'll be bulletproof
I won't let you turn around, And tell me now I'm much too proud, To walk away from something when it's dead, Do do do your dirty words come out to play when you are hurt?, There's certain things that should be left unsaid, Tick tick tick on the watch and life's too short for me to stop, Oh baby, your time is running out, I won't let you turn around, And tell me now I'm much too proud, All you do is fill me up with doubt.
I love love love this song.Bulletproof by La Roux.So electro babyy.Probably because of the lyrics itself && I will be bulletproof from what has happened.Definitely will be.
Bila dapat lampu hijau untuk berpijak atas kaki sendiri,tak payah pijak atas kaki orang lain,walaupun mula-mula lampu tak berapa nak hijau,macam kuning-kuning sikit.Weh kau,boleh tak tak payah kias-kias berbunga bunga?Baiklah baiklah.Bila dapat lampu hijau untuk drive pergi Melaka dengan ditemani oleh perempuan yang pegang stering kereta pon tak pernah,hati menjadi teruja padahal hek eleh Melaka je kot kau ni kecoh $$^%$#*!.Hoish teruja siot nak drive lama-lama kat highway tu sebab selama ni nak reverse kereta keluar rumah pon mintak ibu bapa prihatin tolong reverse kan dulu sebab macam nervous nak reverse takot I hentam lagi kereta orang macam dulu tu.Dah dapat cenderahati satu lubang kat bahagian depan kereta yang besarnya boleh muat penumbuk I.Mesti cakap besar penumbuk I sebab kalau cakap besar penumbuk Fahren Ahmadd itu besar sangat tak muat. Baiklah sebenarnya biasa je drive kat highway tu sebab jalan yang benar kan so macam kena alert bila nak potong memotong je ah.I macam seorang pemandu yang sopan santun oleh itu boleh nampak I kat line paling kiri sahaja.Paling kiri.Lepas tu dah berlagak sikit pergi line tengah.Baiklah rasa macam "Huh,lembab ah Perdana depan ni ",terus jadi taiko pergi line paling kanan.Lepas tu bila rasa macam banyak kereta dah potong-potong I,mula rasa rendah diri tunduk pergi line paling kiri balik.Tskk. Sebenarnya pergi Melaka untuk jumpa membe-membe PLKN dulu disamping teman ade la orang tu nak jumpa orang tersayang.Yeye call Hasbi konon nak pergi makan kedai dia,lepas tu nak jumpa Alya nak ambik kasut I sekali ada kat dia, tapi tak sempat sebab tertengok cerita Valentine yang macam %^&$$# tu.Sumpah bosan nak mati tak tau ah sebab emo kurang kasih sayang ke apa atau sebab body Jessica Alba hot sangat.Lepas tu maki-maki cerita tu apsal romantik sangat terus keluar tak nak tengok lagi ah. Then our so called Mr tourist guide bawak jalan jalan guna kaki tak guna kereta jalan-jalan around the town.Terima kasih Ismahaniff.Turun satu kilo.Walaupun masa mula-mula approached him cakap ape tah terpaksa keluar kata kesat dalam hati sebab memang macam hoishhhh tah ape-ape tah.Copek haaa,lompang muko den sekarang gak.It feels a little bit awkward when you suddenly met someone you used to close with but you have to react like nothing ever happened between you and that someone,because you dont want to ruin or spoil the moment,takkan nak ungkit-ungkit cerita lama.Tapi tapi redha je lah. Sudahlah sudahlah.Apa-apa pun Peyjal dengan Areen lah paling happy sebab macam dah lama kot pasangan kekasih cinta jarak berela-ela ni tak jumpa, bila dah jumpa terus I kena tinggal.Emo lagi.
Muka gay ni lah yang gay-gay kat luar tergila-gila sangat tu.
Geli tak?Geli tak?Geli kan?I dah suruh dah dia pose gagah sikit tapi patah jugak nyehhh.
Kenapa kalau ambik gambar sendiri mesti muka stok nak kerut-kerut lepas tu kenapa gambar I mesti banyak gambar tengah makan.Tak senonoh pulak tu kobis dalam burger pon boleh terkeluar.Choyyy. So yeahhhh I had fun with you guys,esok-esok jumpa lagi.
I was about to get off to sleep last nite after done with the tutorials but suddenly this image of friend of mine came across my mind and I wondered how he is doing.Our last conversation was not the usual conversation we had before as I reacted differently with him and I've said things that I'm sure he'll take a long time to forgive or not at all.Kawan, saya minta maaf banyak-banyak. But that is not what I'm going to tell here.I decided to check his blog last nite to check out any latest updates.Okay no updates.But then,I click a link to his best friend's blog who is a friend of mine too and I bursted into tears as I started to read his posts about his late mother.Having a loss of someone who has be a constant in your life must be the most horrible thing anyone ever gone through.And having a sudden loss of your own mother must be the hardest.I don't know if I am strong enough if I were at his place or maybe I would just wanted to open my eyes,hoping to find it was just a really bad dream. Bila baca post dia,rasa malu dengan diri sendiri sebab selama ni terlampau sedih dengan 'kehilangan' yang tak seberapa itu.Rasa kecil sangat,nipis sangat,rendah sangat,jauh sangat kalau nak dibandingkan dengan kehilangan seorang ibu.Astarghfirullah. Semoga arwah ibu Fahmi ditempatkan dikalangan mereka yang soleh dan solehah.Al-Fatihah.
Im not in the mood to post a full description on whats happening today. Tapi tadi banyak sangat bende tak best jadi. Bila benda yang tak patut tahu,sudah diketahui.Bila dah tahu,sakit hati.Marah dengan diri sendiri sebab benda yang patut sudah boleh lepas,tak dilepaskan lagi. Juga bila benda yang dirancang tapi orang tak hargai.
